Saturday, January 31, 2009

Song Covers

My friends and I were discussing our favorite song covers and I thought I would share my top five since I’m totally bored and never seem to have anything to talk about on the weekends. :)

The reason I especially love these five is because they took a song and turned it into a personal expression instead of trying to replicate the originals.

Just goes to show that all art is measured and received differently by the individual.

Billie Jean:
This is an acoustic cover of Michael Jackson’s Billie Jean by Chris Cornell. Obviously Cornell kicked ass in Soundgarden and Audioslave, but this cover is one of my all time favorites.

Hey Ya:
This is a cover of Hey Ya by Mat Weddle of Obadiah Parker. It is amazing! Anything else I can say would only take away from the song. This is a crappy video someone made, but the sound is perfect.

Back to Black:
This is the Ruble Strips cover of Back to Black by Amy Winehouse. I heard their song Girls and Boys in Love in the movie Run Fat Boy Run and I just loved their sound (plus the singer is adorable).

This is A Perfect Circle’s cover of Imagine by John Lenon. Maynard is just effing amazing. Nothing more needs to be said. I don’t think there’s a song he could touch that I wouldn’t love.

This is a cover of Nutshell by Staind. It takes a giant of a performer to cover something by Alice in Chains and Aaron Lewis is obviously more than able. I actually like his version better than the original. This cover is different from the others because Staind didn’t actually change the sound of the song, but it had to be included. Period.

Staind also does an amazing cover of Tool’s Sober and Pearl Jam’s Black. Oh and their covers of Pink Floyd’s Comfortably Numb and Nothing else Matters by Metallica have to be mentioned as well. (So shoot me, I love Staind and they can cover anything.)

I also love:
Johnny Cash’s version of Nine Inch Nails Hurt
Ryan Adams version of Oasis’s Wonderwall
I can’t believe it, but Brittney Spears cover of Boby Brown’s My Prerogative
Sublime’s cover of the Toots & the Maytals’ 54-46 That's My Number/ Ball and Chain. Sublime wrote the second part of the song (Ball and Chain) but I love the way they combined the sounds.

So that's it. The more I think about it the more I remember so I'm gonna stop here. lol

I would love to hear some of your favorites though. :)

*Just follow the links if you want to hear the covers I’m talking about.

Armey Sexism

I think a lot of people look for sexism and racism in their every day lives therefore creating it to a certain extent.

That being said, I actually thought these comments by Dick Armey were completely inappropriate:

It’s just sad that because he has no valid argument he has to resort to sexism.

I think the reason I’m always so flabbergasted when blatantly sexist or racist things are said is because I find it so surprising that this type of thinking still exists today. I know its a little naïve, but I feel like we should have moved past these types of comments by now.


That’s why I don’t understand the conservative ideology. To me it’s just stagnation with no room for growth or change and when you’re resistant to all change, you‘re also resisting changes for the better.

At least I can look at pictures like the one below and know that things will get better.

Pic of former President Bush signing the Partial Birth Abortion Ban Act of 2003 and President Obama signing the Lily Ledbetter Fair Pay Act of 2009:

What a difference an administration makes.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Really House Republicans? Really?

I found this article at Slate and it really irked me.

Now I’m not an economist. In fact, my one semester of required economy class in high school is pretty much the extent of my knowledge. I try to never argue subjects I don’t know a lot about (how I wish everyone felt the same) but I know the writer of this article completely missed the mark.
When President Obama's economic recovery plan passed the House along partisan lines Wednesday, 244-188, some Democrats expressed surprise that not a single Republican voted for the bill. "Not one person felt his or her district needed to have any of this assistance?" one Connecticut Democrat told the New York Times. "That can't be."

Of course not. Republicans have acknowledged as much. In notes jotted down during a Tuesday meeting with Obama, one GOPer noted: "We expect the vast majority of House Republicans to oppose the package tomorrow, but we are optimistic that after the bill passes the House there may be a real opportunity for a bipartisan package." In other words, we will come around. But at this moment, unanimous opposition was the smartest stance House Republicans could have taken—both politically and ideologically.

Voting against the bill was good politics because it shows that the GOP can't be persuaded by charm alone, presidential or otherwise. Sure, Republicans risk coming off as stubborn in the face of Obama's ostentatious magnanimity. But at this stage, there's nothing wrong with playing hard to get. There will be time for bipartisan necking later.

Another advantage is that the vote makes Minority Leader John Boehner and Minority Whip Eric Cantor look good. The fact that zero out of 178 Republicans broke ranks shows a united, disciplined front. On a symbolic vote like this—one of the first of the 111th Congress—sending a signal is more important than reaching an immediate compromise.

Lastly, voting against the stimulus is win/win for Republicans. If the package succeeds at reviving the economy, it won't be in the short term. (And even in the long term, success will probably be less tangible than its cost.) If it fails, they can say, I told you so. Meanwhile, many of them are looking for political cover after voting for the October bailout, which hasn't exactly been a roaring success.

“There’s nothing wrong with playing hard to get?” What the hell is that suppose to mean? And why is sending a signal that Republicans are only interested in compromise when it’s in their favor rather then actually working for the American people a good thing?

We are still at the “I told you so” stage? I’m sorry to break it to the Republicans, but the Democrats are going to win that argument for quite a while.

I also don’t think the Republicans will be looked upon as somehow being the champion of us regular folk. This author completely disregards the fact that it looks to some (at least to me) that Republicans would rather try to strong arm democrats, even though they don’t have the muscle, than actually try to help the economy.
Still, the ideological argument for opposing the stimulus may be even better. Put yourself in the shoes of a vulnerable House Republican up for re-election in 2010. Your constituents may be skittish about the idea of spending $850 billion, but they want to see some sort of action—especially if they live in Iowa or Michigan, which are hemorrhaging jobs by the day. (Before the inauguration, 53 percent of Americans supported Democratic efforts to craft a stimulus package, and an even larger majority supported infrastructure spending.) At the same time, you want to be able to say that you have been a loyal member of the opposition, with an instinctive skepticism of Big Government. (Leaving aside, for the moment, what you said and did for the eight years leading up to now.)

The best path forward, then, is to express skepticism, hold Obama's feet to the fire, fight for changes like more tax cuts and less spending on birth control (done and done), and then finally sign on. See, for example, Iowa Sen. Chuck Grassley's insistence on including a provision that keeps the alternative minimum tax from falling on middle-class families. Consider that many Republican districts will benefit from massive government spending—highways, wind energy, and expanded Internet access all help rural areas—and it may be hard to say no. (It's no coincidence that Dems are targeting Grassley, who is up for re-election in 2010.) As long as Republicans can show they put up a fight, that's cover enough.

For more evidence that some Republicans will come around, look at the alternative bills offered Wednesday. One of them proposed $445 billion in tax cuts, with less spending than the Democratic bill. But the Democratic bill already includes at least $273 billion in tax cuts for individuals and businesses. By the time negotiations are over, it's easy to imagine that number creeping up to the $445 billion Republicans requested. Yes, the spending projects may still turn off many Republicans. But they won't be able to say there weren't sufficient tax cuts.

Both sides like to claim the mantle of bipartisanship while insisting that the other side is obstructing. Boehner claimed Wednesday that "[t]he onus is on Speaker Pelosi. She needs to meet with us. She needs to open her doors. We need to begin to work truly in a bipartisan fashion." That could be pure posturing. But if incentives mean anything—and to Republicans, they do—the pledge of eventual bipartisanship may be legitimate.

More tax cuts. Right cause that’s the solution to everything. God people are morons. Why don’t we allow the people who actually know something about economics to decide the right path and not let every dick head with a microphone or pen *cough Rush Limbaugh cough* tell people who are too lazy to actually look anything up themselves that tax cuts are the answer?

Tax cuts don’t work. All this talk that businesses will use the tax cuts to hire more people is ludicrous. We already have plenty of people to work and factories to make things. We just don’t have anyone to buy them (otherwise known as DEMAND).

I’m also tired of this “big government” argument. It just doesn’t make sense. If we look at countries that have these so called “big” governments we'll see that a lot of them have a higher standard of living then America. Obama said it right, “The question we ask today is not whether our government is too big or too small, but whether it works -- whether it helps families find jobs at a decent wage, care they can afford, a retirement that is dignified.”

And why should the democrats have to do all the work when it comes to bipartisanship? Maybe republicans should remember that a lot of their colleges were replaced and stop with the bickering about spending because it’s pretty pathetic when a winter storm can leave an entire section of our country without electricity and our bridges collapse under drivers.

Here's a brilliant video of Rachel Maddow:

And I am totally loving the idea of the White House publishing state by state numbers of the amount of jobs these Republicans voted against.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Where is everybody?

Wow, the internet is like dead today. I’m a little bummed because it proves just how much I look to the internet for entertainment.

Oh well.

Since my job search is pretty much pointless right now, I’ve been entertaining myself with making things and different crafts. Even though this is the very reason I started another blog, I am totally smitten with my newest project.

I had painted these three panels forever ago and they have just been getting beat up sitting on top of a precarious pile of random crud that is defying gravity daily by refusing to fall over.


So I took the top panel and cut it up. Love it.

I also just tried a new vegetarian recipe called Santa Fe Nacho Pizzas and it’s amazing. (We’re not vegetarian but we like to mix it up. lol) If you’re interested, you can find the recipe here.


I also think today should be smack a republican day for not one of them voting for the new stimulus package and a big kiss to democrats and Obama for signing the Lily Ledbetter fair pay act into law.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Life's for sharing

T’mobile’s new advent is amazing! I just saw it and am completely in love. I don’t care that almost all of these people were paid to do this.

It’s simply brilliant.

I can just imagine how this would have turned an ordinary day into something extraordinary.

This is what one of the people on youtube had to say:
I was waiting for my train at Liverpool Station, London....a guy starts dancing in the middle of the station! Then more and more people.. suddenly I was surrounded! Then I got dragged.. it was great..
I'd missed my train so I stayed for the next go (as they were doing it every 20 mins during the day) and had a proper go. Then finally I thought I'd video it.
It's on tv tomorrow at 21:10 channel 4 for a t mobile advert.. moto being 'lifes for sharing' and thats about all i know!! madness, but it made my day .. so weldone to them .. :)

Lucky bastard. lol

Here is another advertisement I really like. Even though I hate Pepsi, I'm glad to see them including gay men in their marketing.

It is only in the UK though since they seem to be much cooler about gays and sex in general. (You should see the people freaking out about this on youtube.)

Might as well throw in this pic I've been holding on to for a while:


I don't know who made it (I made the font bigger), but I love when anti smoking ads are clever.

Really I love when anything is clever. ;)

Utah gives gays the finger…again

So this isn’t going to surprise anyone, but Utah just shot down the first of a six part Common Ground initiatives.

To sum this up for you lucky non utahns, the Common Ground Initiative is in full regard to statements the church said after all the bad press with the passing of prop 8 and the rights of gay couples.

The LDS Church declared it is not “anti-gay” and “does not object to rights for same-sex couples regarding hospitalization and medical care, fair housing and employment rights, or probate rights.” Elder L. Whitney Clayton even stated the LDS Church does not oppose “civil unions or domestic partnerships.”

So in response to these statements, Equality Utah launched its Common Ground Initiative, designed to address each of the issues mentioned by the LDS Church.

Talk about foot in mouth for the church right?


They’re not really asking for much and a lot of it would support non married heterosexual couples as well. Just spousal health care benefits to cover partners. Adding sexual orientation and gender to the job antidiscrimitory amendments as well as another to cover sexual orientation and gender in housing so landlords can’t evict people just because they’re gay. Removing some barriers of inheritance and insurance for wrongful deaths of all unmarried couples and creating a domestic partnership registry.

I don’t see how anyone can think these are bad things, but I'm pretty sure that's my godless homo loving nature coming in to play.

The most controversial part of the initiative is one to repeal the portion of Amendment 3 (Anti gay marriage amendment) which states “no other domestic union, however denominated, may be recognized as marriage or be given the same or substantially equivalent legal effect.” It will not change Utah’s current definition of marriage, which is one man and one woman, but will allow a domestic registry involving inheritance, housing, and insurance. They are trying to show that a registry is nowhere near the legal equivalent of marriage, but there is no way it is going to pass.

Here is an article about the first part of the initiative to go to the Utah legislation:
The first in a package of six controversial bills dealing with gay and lesbian rights was voted down Tuesday afternoon in the Senate Judiciary Committee.

The wrongful-death amendment, SB32, which was sponsored by Sen. Scott McCoy, D-Salt Lake, would have amended state law to allow anyone in "a mutually supportive and dependent relationship" to sue for wrongful-death damages — including same-sex couples. The bill, which had been previously approved during interim hearings, only received support during voting from McCoy and his fellow Salt Lake Democrat, Ross Romero.

Senators voting against the bill were primarily concerned that this would lead lawmakers down a path toward legalizing gay marriage, which the state banned with a constitutional amendment in 2004. That concern was echoed by testimony from opponents.

Gayle Ruzicka, head of the Eagle Forum, said that passage of Amendment 3 by Utah voters meant that no domestic relationship could be given the same legal status as marriage.

"I believe that this bill today does exactly that," Ruzicka said. "This bill treats same-sex partners as spouses."

After the vote, McCoy said it was frustrating that members of the committee were so paralyzed by fear that they were forced to express a complete lack of compassion for people in society who are affected by the death of a loved one or a partner.

"None of the opponents who came and testified against the bill really had anything to say about the bill," McCoy said. "They kept trying to make it about marriage, and it's simply not. It's specifically not."

The bill's defeat does not bode well for the other bills that are being pushed by Equality Utah as the Common Ground Initiative, although McCoy said the other bills will still be pushed this session. In the days following the passage of California's same-sex marriage ban, Equality Utah officials said they used statements from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to create the bills of the Common Ground Initiative. The package is not about marriage, Equality Utah has said, but rather about basic protections for the state's lesbian, gay and transgender community.
Will Carlson, manager of public policy for Equality Utah, said he was surprised this one did so poorly in committee. Still, he said the proposal would not go away, even if it means waiting until next year.

"We brought this two years ago; we brought this last year; we'll bring it next near," he said.

The widely anticipated committee meeting was packed, with an overflow crowd. Five witnesses from each side of the debate were allowed to testify, and the committee's consideration of the bill lasted almost 90 minutes.

Wow. I feel so warm and fuzzy that they spent a whole 90 minutes concerning themselves with the rights of whole group of people.

It’s always sad when the “slippery slope” argument is used because it means they are denying rights on the potential of future laws.

Did you catch that? They aren’t going to give the lesbian, gay, or transgender comminuty ANY rights, because down the line they might start getting above their station and demand EQUAL rights.

Obviously that doesn’t make any sense and is completely wrong, but what can you expect from politicians and legislators?

The sad thing is Salt Lake County is the liberal part of Utah.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Faith Over Medicine

I found this article at Richard and I was completely floored. I can’t believe these sort of things still happen in the united States. It’s disgusting and dangerous to say the least.

To sum up the article, the parents of Kara Neumann belong to a church that believes that god alone has the ability to heal the sick. So when Kara grew so weak she couldn’t talk or walk, he parents decided to pray instead of taking her to the doctor.


She died.
Kara Neumann, 11, had grown so weak that she could not walk or speak. Her parents, who believe that God alone has the ability to heal the sick, prayed for her recovery but did not take her to a doctor.

After an aunt from California called the sheriff’s department here, frantically pleading that the sick child be rescued, an ambulance arrived at the Neumann’s rural home on the outskirts of Wausau and rushed Kara to the hospital. She was pronounced dead on arrival.

The county coroner ruled that she had died from diabetic ketoacidosis resulting from undiagnosed and untreated juvenile diabetes. The condition occurs when the body fails to produce insulin, which leads to severe dehydration and impairment of muscle, lung and heart function.

“Basically everything stops,” said Dr. Louis Philipson, who directs the diabetes center at the University of Chicago Medical Center, explaining what occurs in patients who do not know or “are in denial that they have diabetes.”

The fucked up part is that this isn’t as that uncommon of an occurrence. Rita Swan, of Children’s Health Care Is a Legal Duty, estimates the number to be around 300 children deaths in the last 25 years. That’s about one a month.
About a month after Kara’s death last March, the Marathon County state attorney, Jill Falstad, brought charges of reckless endangerment against her parents, Dale and Leilani Neumann. Despite the Neumanns’ claim that the charges violated their constitutional right to religious freedom, Judge Vincent Howard of Marathon County Circuit Court ordered Ms. Neumann to stand trial on May 14, and Mr. Neumann on June 23. If convicted, each faces up to 25 years in prison.

“The free exercise clause of the First Amendment protects religious belief,” the judge wrote in his ruling, “but not necessarily conduct.”

Wisconsin law, he noted, exempts a parent or guardian who treats a child with only prayer from being criminally charged with neglecting child welfare laws, but only “as long as a condition is not life threatening.” Kara’s parents, Judge Howard wrote, “were very well aware of her deteriorating medical condition.”

About 300 children have died in the United States in the last 25 years after medical care was withheld on religious grounds, said Rita Swan, executive director of Children’s Health Care Is a Legal Duty, a group based in Iowa that advocates punishment for parents who do not seek medical help when their children need it. Criminal codes in 30 states, including Wisconsin, provide some form of protection for practitioners of faith healing in cases of child neglect and other matters, protection that Ms. Swan’s group opposes.

In the last year, two other sets of parents, both in Oregon, were criminally charged because they had not sought medical care for their children on the ground that to do so would have violated their belief in faith healing. One couple were charged with manslaughter in the death of their 15-month-old daughter, who died of pneumonia last March. The other couple were charged with criminally negligent homicide in the death of their 16-year-old son, who died from complications of a urinary tract infection that was severely painful and easily treatable.

“Many types of abuses of children are motivated by rigid belief systems,” including severe corporal punishment, said Ms. Swan, a former Christian Scientist whose 16-month-old son, Matthew, died after she postponed taking him to a hospital for treatment of what proved to be meningitis. “We learned the hard way.”

I wonder if people still think it’s so crazy that Richard Dawkins believes it can be harmful to children to be raised extremely religious.
The Neumanns are known locally as followers of an online faith outreach group called Unleavened Bread Ministries, run by a preacher, David Eells. The site shares stories of faith healing and talks about the end of the world.

An essay on the site signed Pastor Bob states that the Bible calls for healing by faith alone. “Jesus never sent anyone to a doctor or a hospital,” the essay says. “Jesus offered healing by one means only! Healing was by faith.”

A link from the site,, asserts that the couple is being persecuted and “charged with the crime of praying.” The site also allows people to contribute to a legal fund for the Neumanns.

In the small town of Weston, many people shake their heads with dismay when Kara Neumann is mentioned. Tammy Klemp, 41, who works behind the counter at a convenience store here, said she disagreed with the Neumanns’ passive response to their daughter’s illness but said she was not sure they should go to prison.

“I’ve got mixed feelings,” Ms. Klemp said. “It’s just such a terribly sad case.”

Chris Goebel, 30, a shipping department worker for a window maker, said many people in the area felt strongly that the parents should be punished.

“That little girl wasn’t old enough to make the decision about going to a doctor,” Mr. Goebel said. “And now, because some religious extremists went too far, she’s gone.”

How can you have mixed feelings about this? We are talking about the death of a child, not what your favorite ice cream flavor is.

And how dare these people and their church try to claim they are being persecuted because they pray. I went to their website and it’s full of so much b.s. I wanted to hit someone.

What about this little girl’s freedom? On the website they claim that this is what Kara would have wanted, but I’m pretty sure most people wouldn't want to die of extreme dehydration while their blood turns into acid.

I guess this just comes down to what’s important to us as a nation. The harmful and ridiculous actions we’ve allowed to hide behind the cloak of “religious freedom” or our children.

Musingly or dreamily thoughtful

I can’t sleep regular hours. Ever since I was young, I have stayed up really late and slept in late. Honestly, getting up before 9 o’clock is pretty much my version of hell. That and mayonnaise sandwiches. (Seriously, what are you thinking people? It’s disgusting and you should be ashamed of yourself.)

I’ve lived a few places where I was forced to wake up early and go to bed at certain times and I still couldn’t get to sleep before midnight. I would just lie in bed thinking of all the lucky bastards dreaming of hot gay men or whatever it is other people dream about. It seems no matter what time I go to bed I still sleep in late so I’ve just accepted it.

My mother is the same way though so I’m pretty much just blaming her. It’s a lot easier then taking responsibility for myself. Totally recommend it.

My point is that even though I always stay up late, sometimes I can get in a weird funk. I don’t want to say I get depressed (cause I’m not), but I can get very pensive about things. I actually nurture these feeling because they are the core essence of where my creativity comes from. Yes, I know it sounds totally queer but it’s true. I don’t think you can make truly artistic expressions without some sort of anguish.

But when I read blogs of people who are depressed, it makes me realize how lucky I am. My life is great. It’s boring and simple, but it’s mine and I love it. I have amazing friends and am in a relationship I really want to be in. Yes I need a job and am totally broke, but why should something as trivial as work bring me down? Sometimes I think I’ll never get to do all the things I want to before I die, but I think it’s important to just keep moving forward. That’s what happiness is to me.

I know I complain a lot on this blog, but the real reason I do so is because I’m hopeful for the future and know things can be better. We can be better.

I just don’t get why people sit and stew in their own unhappiness. I am a firm believer that you deserve what you put up with.

Sometimes I think I’m lucky to have had a hard childhood. It’s like I got all of my distress out of the way and now know that nothing can ever be as bad as it is when you have no control over your own life or the bad things that happen to you. People forget that it always gets better. Sometimes you take a hell of a beating getting there, but it’s just that much sweeter when you do.

It's almost 3 a.m. and I’m realizing that I could go on forever so I'm gonna stop...


That was totally for you Haworth... lol

Monday, January 26, 2009

Music of Your Life

I found this on this...survey I guess...on a blog on myspace. I hate surveys and the like, but I actually enjoyed doing this.

If you're bored you should fill it out. I'm interested to see what songs mean what to you.

I want you to fill out the list below with the songs you think best describe various moments in your life. The questionnaire is laid out as though your life was a movie, so think of the songs as your life's soundtrack.

It is a lot of fun to put together… but not nearly as easy as it might seem. Also when you look at other people's lists it is a great way to find out more about them and, maybe, find some new tunes.

Copy and paste the list below into your response… then simply fill it in. I'll start it off.

Opening credits –
Waking up –
Average day –
Friends -
Dating –
Falling in love –
Love scene –
The Plot Thickens –
The Best Day of Your Life –
Fight scene –
Breaking up –
Getting back together –
Past love –
Life's okay –
Driving –
Mental breakdown -
Your Lowest Moment –
Your past –
Learning a Lesson –
Deep Thoughts -
Partying –
Regret –
Happy dance –
Solitary Night –
The Plot Twist –
Death Scene –
Closing credits –

Opening credits –“Love Today” by Mika
Waking up –“Bathwater” by No Doubt
Average day – “Extraordinary Machine” by Fiona Apple
Friends –“Garden Grove” by Sublime
Dating –“Best For Last” by Adele
Falling in love –“Something” by the Beatles
Love scene –“Closer” by Nine Inch Nails
The Plot Thickens –“Weak and Powerless” A Perfect Circle
The Best Day of Your Life –“Times Like These” by The Foo Fighters
Fight scene –“The Red” by Chevelle
Breaking up –“Breakdown” by Mariah Carey and Bone Thugs
Getting back together –“Water Runs Dry” by Boyz 2 Men
Past love – “Please Bleed” by Ben Harper
Life's okay –“Jungle Love” by The Steve Miller Band
Driving –“Roxanne” by The Police
Mental breakdown –“Down in a Hole” by Alice in Chains
Your Lowest Moment –“Creep” by STP
Your past –“Out Of My Mind” by Fastball
Learning a Lesson –“Shame” by Matchbox Twenty
Deep Thoughts –“The Ghost With Sad Eyes” by Gregory Page
Partying –“ First of the Month” by Bone Thugs N Harmony
Regret –"Cheers Darlin" by Damien Rice
Happy dance –“Boten Anna” by Basshunter
Solitary Night –“Back to Black” by Amy Winehouse
The Plot Twist – “Zero” by Smashing Pumpkins
Death Scene –“Gravedigger” by Dave Matthews
Closing credits –“Don’t Let the Sun Go Down On me” by Elton John

The critics can suck it

I want to give kudos to Obama for lifting the “global gag rule” that had forbade the US government from supporting any organization that provided or advised women about abortion in any way. (Of course they were allowed to spew their anti choice rhetoric.)

Even though it was expected, it still makes me happy.

Under Bush, the rule was not only reintroduced (Clinton had rescinded it), but expanded by cutting off assistance to the United Nations Population Fund.

Dr. Greer, Director General of the International Planned Parenthood Federation, said:

“IPPF estimates that during the Bush administration it lost at least US$100 million for the life saving family planning and sexual and reproductive health services that our grassroots national affiliates in over 100 developing countries deliver to their communities.

Based on internationally recognized estimates this funding would have prevented 36 million unintended pregnancies and 15 million induced abortions.

More tragically 80,000 women’s and 2.5 million infant and children’s lives would have been saved. This is the true legacy of the Global Gag Rule.”

We are talking about an organization that works with 180 donor nations and it’s appalling to care as little about woman’s rights as China. The facts don’t even support the claim that this policy will decrease the amount of abortions and it’s sad that the potential of life of a fetus is more valued then woman’s rights, HIV and aids care, child immunizations, and decreasing the infant mortality fate.

Doesn’t sound very “pro-family” to me.

So, kudos Mr. President.

Closing Guantanamo, being %100 against torture, and lifting this ban were three of the things I feared to be hopeful about. So far so good.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Weekly address 01/24/2009

"In his first weekly address since being sworn in as the 44th president of the United States, President Barack Obama discussed how the American Recovery and Reinvestment Plan will jump-start the economy." -White House Blog

"No one policy or program will solve the challenges we face right now, nor will this crisis recede in a short period of time. But if we act now and act boldly; if we start rewarding hard work and responsibility once more; if we act as citizens and not partisans and begin again the work of remaking America, then I have faith that we will emerge from this trying time even stronger and more prosperous than we were before."

Beware of the young doctor and the old barber

Tomorrow I will get back to regularly scheduled bitching and whining, but today I want ramble on about age.

Because it’s strange how a few years can make a big difference as long as it falls between certain ages.


Most of my friends in Utah are younger than me by a couple years. Even though it’s a small difference, I can go to the bars and they can’t which can be a major pain in the ass when it comes to some things (like certain music venues and the burlesque shows).

So my house is the place we usually end up partying at. It works out great for me since I never have to worry about a designated driver or a babysitter. And if I have to deal with the occasional puker, well I just remind myself that I love them and make sure everything’s okay.

My boyfriend and I have also started drinking with our next door neighbors. It's really amusing how the tables are turned when we’re with them, being as they’re in their late thirties and to them we're the youngsters. I've noticed there are quite a few distinct differences between the two groups.

One of the biggest, my friends drink my booze and we drink our neighbors. lol

My neighbors started out as Mormon and I noticed that the way they look at some things is still in line with the church’s conservative beliefs. My friends on the other hand, have always rebelled against the church and are as liberal as I am. (Well except for Kramer, but every group need a punching bag.)


They also have strict ideas about drugs (even marijuana), but my friends couldn’t give a rats ass unless it’s in the heroin/crack family. As long as it isn’t addictive, we pretty much don’t care. I personally don’t even consider marijuana a drug and think it’s hypocritical to sell alcohol and tobacco but not joints.

One of the biggest differences though, is the way my neighbors feel about homosexuality. They are way more homophobic than my friends are. I think it might be one of those generational issues, but they couldn’t even fathom watching gay porn. The idea of two men kissing grosses them out and they are the type of people that only understand the appeal of two women together.My friends, on the other hand, think it’s more of a different strokes for different folks type issue.

I also don’t talk about politics with my neighbors in case they’re even more conservative than I think, but politics is one of my favorite subjects to debate with my friends.

Thought that was interesting.

I did get to break in my pimp goblet with both groups last night though. :)

Photobucket was a gift from Ryan's brother for

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Sometimes you just got to dance

I’ve mentioned before that I follow a lot of blogs written by gay men. I don’t even seek them out on purpose.

I think their awesomeness just calls out to me.

I found this on the blog Stig in the Mud. The video is of some guy dancing. I know it looks dirty, but it's not (sorry lol).

I know it is kind of creepy to admit, but I love him. Mostly because he is just being who he is, but also because it’s nice to know I’m not the only one who does this (obviously not to this extent).

Plus, who doesn’t love a guy that can get down?

I’ve never had a boyfriend that could actually dance now that I think about it. I used to go dancing in Mexico when I was too young to go to bars and I always danced with my girl friends since the guys were always too “cool” to really dance. Well that and there are some gross people in Mexico.

Like stalker/future rapist gross.

In the beauty that is youtube, I found this video in the related thingy. Enjoy:

You're welcome.

*Heads up about following the link, there are pictures of naked men on their page. Lots of them. So don't check it out if that's not your thing. I don't want to be blamed for leading impressionable young minds astray. :)

Work is the curse of the middle class

I hate looking for work. Finding a job is practically a full time job in its self.

I posted my resume on Craigslist and I’ve gotten a ton of emails that sound like scams. Listen to this:
Can you work as a mail dispatcher? I own a small shipping business and I tend to operate a high cost of operation and I want to cut down my expenses…blah blah blah…for example, the cost of sending each mail is $36.00 by UPS and we want to send out 100 mails, that would be $3,600 which is to costly but we have a solution whereby, we ship the whole 100 mails in one package at the rate of $600 to you in your state and when you get it, you will open it and send the mail individually through USPS which will be $7 to $10 each and you can see the we will have a savings, $600 for bulk shipping plus $10 times 100 making $1,600, you can see we have saved $2,000, so please I need you to work for me on a part-time basis, and you will be paid $1,600 every month. You will be provided with funds to dispatch the mails upfront, you will be provided with up to $800 to $3,400 as a running fund for dispatching the mails. I want to assure you that you will never use your own money for any expenses and you are not require to buy anything to begin the job, it is a straight forward job opportunity.

Yeah right.

This blows. I really need to get a job in the next week or two since Ryan’s work has been hit hard by the economy and they are laying everyone off for one week a month. I’m not exactly sure who thought this was a good idea, but that’s pretty much how the retards in charge work.

Too bad this isn’t like the old days where I could be a kept woman by giving out some hand jobs (although syphilis sounds like a bitch). At least I could wear those bad ass dresses though. And have other people clean my house. I don't think I could handle the lice though...

Oops, I’m totally getting off track…


I did have someone email me for a nanny position while he’s in Utah for a work retreat or some crap. That might have potential, depending on the details. I’m not sure though, I kind of hate kids.

I’m lying, I really hate them.

I can barely tolerate my own kid half the time. Working in day care was a daily fight to regain my will to live and not throw myself into oncoming traffic.

So we’ll see.

Wow this post sucks. I apologize for you having to read it. lol

Friday, January 23, 2009

Words fail me

I came across this article on accident. I was searching random sites for a specific article that had caught my eye and this is what I found instead.

I’ve decided to just copy and paste someone else’s feelings about the situation because I could never find enough words to express the horror and rage I felt after reading this.
In London, England, 10 black men lured a 16 year old retarded black girl to an empty house, raped her (sodomy, urinating on her – the works), then threw caustic soda on her naked body and face causing 50% burns. Strangely only 3 were charged and sentenced to short terms in jail.


Rogel McMorris, 18, from Tottenham, north London, was jailed for nine years for rape and grievous bodily harm. Jason Brew, 19, from Tottenham, was jailed for six years and Hector Muaimba, 20, from Walthamstow, was given eight years for rape and robbery.

The trio filmed themselves gang-raping the girl, laughing as they used their mobile phones to record her suffering.

The sick thing is the special needs girl they raped and tried to kill was black. I would sort of understand if it was a white girl and they were getting revenge for a lifetime of racial abuse, but one of their own and a defensless retard at that!

They poured caustic soda over her, leaving her with skin peeling off her face and chest and screaming in agony as they ran away laughing.

As she writhed in agony, they poured water on her, intensifying the burning.

A court attender said they forced caustic soda up her vagina to try to destroy DNA evidence.

The 16-year-old with the mental age of about eight, had skin peeling off her face, genitals and chest as her attackers poured water on her intensifying the burning, jurors at Wood Green Crown Court heard. She is scarred for life after suffering 50% burns to her body. Caustic soda has been used in sex attacks to destroy DNA evidence.

She told the court she agreed to meet a man she knew for sex there because she thought it would make her popular.

Even worse, the bastards who were charged AND THE FUCKERS WHO RAPED HER AND TRIED TO KILL HER but were not charged and were in court to support their mates, laughed at her in court as she gave evidence.

Investigating officer DC Alex Newton said the defendant’s attitude in court had been ‘disgusting’ as they laughed and giggled through proceedings at Wood Green Crown Court.

With parole they will only have to serve about half of their sentence and British prisons are pretty cushy with TV, computer games, good food, loads of classes and excellent health care. And they get paid whether or not they work whilst in prison.

It is very strange that 7 of the men who raped her were not charged. She knew them, identified them and there was DNA evidence.

Apparently the girl is horribly disfigured and deeply psychologically damaged. The criminal/judicial system in Britain has given the girl less respect than a dog. She has been seen as less valuable than a fucking rubbish bin.

An 18-year-old man has been jailed for life after setting fire to two wheelie bins in north Devon.

Why were the other 7 not charged (one has been stabbed to death already, Steven Bigby, but six are still free)? Why are the sentences so short for such a heinous crime? Why were the fucking scum allowed to laugh in court, especially at the girl when she gave evidence (the judge should have gone berserk)?

I just found out that 5 of the other 7 were in fact charged (Steven Bigby is dead):
“Bradley Daley-Smith, 22, and Miguel Almeida, 22, both of Edmonton, North London; and Bruno Abrantes, 24, both of Tottenham; Opeyemi Ismail, 20, of Leyton, East London all deny two counts of rape. Five also deny GBH with intent.”
but the charges were dropped against 2 by the police on the excuse of’ ‘lack of evidence’, and a jury found 3 not guilty (Bradley Daley-Smith, 22, Miguel Almeida, 22, and Bruno Abrantes).

Rogel McMorris, 18, from Tottenham (G)
Jason Brew, 19, from Tottenham (G)
Hector Muaimba, 20, from Walthamstow (G)
Steven Bigby, 22, from Walthamstow (D)
Bradley Daley-Smith, 22, from Edmonton (NG)
Miguel Almeida, 22, from Edmonton (NG)
Bruno Abrantes, 24, Tottenham (NG)
Opeyemi Ismail, 20, of Leyton
Seem to be 2 missing from news reports?

So, 2 not even charged, 8 were charged, 1 was stabbed to death on bail, 3 found guilty, 3 found not guilty, and I can’t find out what happened to Opeyemi Ismail. However, Opeyemi Ismail was involved in a hit-and-run car accident in September 2008, injuring a small child, and he has was on a suspended sentence for a previous conviction at the time, so should have been in jail in December 2008, not roaming about free to commit tape and attempted murder.

I don’t know what to say. It’s a travesty that these things happen, but even worse is the way the court has handled this case.

Hopefully someone in prison will cut off their balls.


So I tried to join Facebook forever ago and I hated it. None of my friends really use it and either I’m a total tard, or some of the features are needlessly difficult to figure out.

Today I gave it another shot (because it seems everyone uses it) and I have to say I feel pretty much the same about it. I just don’t get it. Maybe it’s because I’ve used myspace for so long, but it just seems weird.

I only found one of my friends and I’m having a hard time since I’m from San Diego but I’m in the Salt Lake City network or some trash.

I don’t freggin know.

I did find one cool thing though, Jews for Obama group. :)

So that's it. Just me whining about how hard it is for me to waste more time on a useless site instead of finding a job.

This blows.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Anniversaries & Change

Today marks the 36th anniversary of Roe vs. Wade.

As usual there are going to be protests throughout the nation by anti choice demonstrators. I hope one day we will be able to move beyond this, but I seriously doubt it will be in my lifetime.

These people don't seem realize that no matter how many polls or thousands of people say they disagree with the landmark decision, the voting doesn’t match. Time and time again people have rejected forced childbirth bills in state after state.

I am proud our new president realizes the importance of women's reproductive rights:
President Obama understands that abortion is a divisive issue, and respects those who disagree with him. However, he has been a consistent champion of reproductive choice and will make preserving women's rights under Roe v. Wade a priority in his Administration. He opposes any constitutional amendment to overturn the Supreme Court's decision in that case.

Unlike our last moron of a president who managed to squeeze in the “National Sanctity of Human Life Day.”
“All human life is a gift from our creator that is sacred, unique and worthy of protection. On National Sanctity of Human Life Day, our country recognizes that each person, including every person waiting to be born, has a special place and purpose in this world,” reads the presidential proclamation.

“The most basic duty of government is to protect the life of the innocent. My administration has been committed to building a culture of life by vigorously promoting adoption and parental notification laws, opposing federal funding for abortions overseas, encouraging teen abstinence and funding crisis pregnancy programs,” the proclamation continues.

Too bad the people who agree with Bush won’t open their eyes and realize that they are hurting their own cause by not giving teens proper sex education and easier access to birth control. It's also nice to hear Bush admit his administration was waging war against women's rights.

So, to all the people who defend our right to choose day in and day out:

Thank you.

Also, If anyone hasn’t checked out the new web page for the White House , you should.


There will be weekly video address by president Obama every Saturday, a blog, a list of executive orders, pictures, resources, and a clear list of agendas.

It’s just another way this president is breaking away from tradition and I can't help but feel connected to the presidency in a way I never have before.

I love it.

Daily Obsession - Weezer

I can fickle with my love (just ask my boyfriend) and sometimes I just forget how much I love something. Then randomly, something reminds me of something else and in the mass confusion masquerading as my brain, I fall in love all over again.

Sorry if that didn’t make any sense.

weezer Pictures, Images and Photos

My point is that I am obsessing over Weezer today. I love bands that have unique sounds and Weezer definitely fits the bill. (Plus they have that hot geek thing going on that I love.)

Say it Ain’t So is the first song I ever heard from Weezer and it is one of my favorites:

Hash Pipe:

Beverly Hills:

I also really love Undone (the sweater song) but I couldn't find a good video to use. lol

My thanks to Haworth for reminding me :)

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Fox News and Obama's oath

What a bunch of retards.

I bet we're going to hear about this for a long time.

Coulter: She's at it again

I don’t think it needs to be said that I can’t stand Ann Coulter. She is a complete waste of space and I really wish she would throw herself of the nearest cliff.


It doesn’t really bother me that for some crazy reason they give her air time, it's that there are people who actually believe what she says.

It’s always unfortunate when people don’t take the time to research things for themselves, but to believe what she says on face value is a dangerous thing. Even if she does have a valid point now and again, it is so sullied and hidden by hate that it is just easier to disregard her completely. (Plus her research has turned out to be false time and time again.)

My problem this time is with some things she said while on The View.

I could not find a shorter clip so just skip to about 4:50 (sorry). They ladies talk about this with Coulter in the next clip.

What she says really bothers me for many different reasons.

For one, she’s not black (or half black) so I think she doesn’t really have the knowledge to make statements like this. The other, these people may be half white but they look black. They would have once been segregated or sold into slavery with everyone else, so I think it’s insensitive to criticize these people for trying to reconcile the way they see themselves with the way the world sees them.

That's not too bad for Coulter, but I wanted to seriously punch someone after watching this clip:


Seriously, what is she thinking? I know I shouldn’t be surprised after watching her attack the 9/11 widows, but I can’t believe she would attack single mothers. I understand that being raised in a two parent household is the ideal, but to blame these mothers is outrageous.
In any event, divorced mothers should be called "divorced mothers," not "single mothers." We also have a term for the youngsters involved: "the children of divorce," or as I call them, "future strippers." It is a mark of how attractive it is to be a phony victim that divorcées will often claim to belong to the more disreputable category of "single mothers." [Page 36]

She assumes that these mothers chose to be single parents, which simply isn’t true (and of the people who do choose to be single parents, they usually have the financial means to do so). She also doesn’t take any socioeconomic reasons into consideration, i.e. class, education, race, or age.

The truth of the matter is, low socioeconomic status is a factor in predicting single motherhood AND incarceration.

And why is this the fault of only the mother? What about the missing fathers? What about all the ways that society fails these women? I can’t begin to understand how Coulter can attack these women, but still defend the institutions that make it harder for these mothers to raise their children.

I'm glad Whoopi asked Coulter if she is married or has any children. If someone is going to attack an entire group of women who struggle each day to pull together a livelihood for their children she should be prepared to answer personal questions about her own circumstance regarding children. Coulter also doesn’t see any difference between teenage motherhood and widows or women who left abusive relationships.

Are these mothers to blame as well? Of course!

But do any of these things really matter? No, because she claims this was a plan perpetrated by liberals because they secretly hate marriage.


It just boggles the mind that people would listen to her and buy her book. Here are some quotes from Wiki quote:
“I think the government should be spying on all Arabs, engaging in torture as a televised spectator sport, dropping daisy cutters wantonly throughout the Middle East and sending liberals to Guantanamo.”

“Not all Muslims may be terrorists, but all terrorists are Muslims.”

“These people can't even wrap up genocide. We've been hearing about this slaughter in Darfur forever — and they still haven't finished. The aggressors are moving like termites across that country. It's like genocide by committee. Who's running this holocaust in Darfur, FEMA? This is truly a war in which we have absolutely no interest.”

“I was going to have a few comments on the other Democratic presidential candidate John Edwards, but it turns out you have to go into rehab if you use the word "faggot", so I — so kind of an impasse, can't really talk about Edwards.”

“The ethic of conservation is the explicit abnegation of man's dominion over the Earth. The lower species are here for our use. God said so: Go forth, be fruitful, multiply, and rape the planet — it's yours. That's our job: drilling, mining and stripping. Sweaters are the anti-Biblical view. Big gas-guzzling cars with phones and CD players and wet bars — that's the Biblical view.”

“I would like evolution to join the roster of other discredited religions, like the Cargo Cult of the South Pacific. Practitioners of Cargo Cult believed that manufactured products were created by ancestral spirits, and if they imitated what they had seen the white man do, they could cause airplanes to appear out of the sky, bringing valuable cargo like radios and TVs. So they constructed “airport towers” out of bamboo and “headphones” out of coconuts and waited for the airplanes to come with the cargo. It may sound silly, but in defense of the Cargo Cult, they did not wait as long for evidence supporting their theory as the Darwinists have waited for evidence supporting theirs.”

“They're [Democrats] always accusing us of repressing their speech. I say let's do it. Let's repress them. Frankly, I'm not a big fan of the First Amendment.”

“The man [Bush] responsible for keeping Americans safe from another terrorist attack on American soil for nearly seven years now will go down in history as one of America's greatest presidents.”

“Apparently, even crazy people prefer targets that can't shoot back. The reason schools are consistently popular targets for mass murderers is precisely because of all the idiotic "Gun-Free School Zone" laws.”

“These broads are millionaires, lionized on TV and in articles about them, reveling in their status as celebrities and stalked by grief-arazzis... These self-obsessed women seemed genuinely unaware that 9/11 was an attack on our nation and acted as if the terrorist attacks happened only to them... I’ve never seen people enjoying their husbands’ deaths so much.” (About the 9/11 widows)

“So for those of you who haven't read any of my five best-selling books: Liberals are driven by Satan and lie constantly.”

“My only regret with Timothy McVeigh is he did not go to the New York Times building.”

“I think [women] should be armed but should not vote...women have no capacity to understand how money is earned. They have a lot of ideas on how to spend's always more money on education, more money on child care, more money on day care.”

I’m ashamed to live in the same country as her.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Prayer and birds

I was watching The View yesterday morning (because I must secretly be a masochist) and something Sherri Shepherd said really bothered me.

They were talking about the Hudson River plane crash (the one caused by a crazy flock of birds) and Sherri commented on the passenger reports of getting down on their knees and starting to pray. She says this is proof that prayer works.

I like Sherri Shepard as an actress. I LOVE Everybody Loves Raymond and she was great on that show, but she is not the brightest tool in the shed. (This clip is a good example.)

I do want to give credit to Whoopi for stopping Sherri and giving praise to the pilot who had over twenty years experience, but my point is this:

People pray during all plane crashes.

I know I’m being a little bit of a whiney bitch, but why can’t we point out that if god saved these people, he condemned all the others? I also don't understand why we give him credit for saving people from things, when he created the things that threatened them in the first place.

He is responsible for all or nothing people. You can’t have it both ways.

It just makes me sick that a school like BYU had the audacity to claim that god rewards the righteous when they win a football game or how music artists thank god first and foremost when winning an award.

Because any god that intervenes during a football game or in the sale of a hip hop album while allowing children to be raped and starved to death is a pathetic excuse of an intelligent being.

That’s not even taking into account the scientific research that shows prayer does NOT work. I am not crazy enough to use this as sole proof that god does not exist, but I do think it shows that if there is a god, he or she doesn’t intervene. (In fact, the people who knew they were being prayed for in the study actually deteriorated in health due to the stress of wanting to do good for the study.)

Or the fact that god could have just moved the birds.

People say we only have to look at the beauty of the world to know proof of God. Well, I also see death, famine, rape, disease, and... Miley Cyrus. How are we to explain that?

We can't.


Epicurus also said it was a good thing god didn't answer prayers because too many people are praying for their enemy’s demise.


(I guess I'm just in one of those moods. lol)

Hello and Goodbye

What a nice moment to wake up to a new president.

There is not too much for me to say except I’m super jealous of all the people in Washington right now. Lucky bastards.

I missed the speech, but I did catch President Obama walking former President Bush out. What a moment.


Adios. Can't say I'll miss ya.

When I did watch President Obama’s (wow I like typing that) speech, I thought it was lovely.

Just lovely.

In celebration of Obama, I found this site Obamicon Me.

They take any photo and...


...Ta Dah!


Go make one. You know you want to. :)

They have a gallery as well. Some are pretty awesome.


I love how the WMD one is empty. lol

Monday, January 19, 2009

The Shoulders of Giants

I just watched a two hour special about the life of Martin Luther King Jr. on the History channel.

It was moving to say the least and it had a profound way of making me feel insignificant.

Even though I am a firm believer in equality for all, I am also cynical of any changes I can make on a personal level when compared to a world of oppression and indifference. I am so moved when learning about the way people are treated and then crushed when I realize it’s a bigger issue than I can ever hope to change.

It’s in those moments I can understand the idea that ignorance is bliss.

But I want to try harder. I’ve been meaning to find a cause I’m passionate about for so long, that it stopped being a plan and simply melded into the static back round of my life.

So that’s it, just pensive thoughts about a time when we didn’t stand on the shoulders of giants, but walked among them. ;)

The fester of small mediocrities

I really like Barack Obama. I am proud to have been able to vote for him and am constantly amazed when I hear him speak. That being said, I will not hesitate to criticize him.


Some people fear that we are idolizing him instead of being weary of his administration, but I think it’s nice to finally be able to look at America, a country I feel so alien to sometimes, and feel hope for a change. Maybe it’s just the optimist in us all, but I see nothing wrong with basking in it for a while.

Because I know it can’t last. Not because I don’t trust Obama, it’s just my realism always beats my optimism. (It’s a dirty cheater though.) Obama is not perfect. He is not going to swoop in and make everything right. How can he when the country can’t even agree on what’s “right” most of the time? He is not perfect. His presidency will not be perfect.

But I love that he knows it.

Remarks in Baltimore this weekend:

“We recognize that such enormous challenges as the ones we face now will not be solved quickly. There will be false starts and setbacks, frustrations and disappointments. I will make some mistakes. We will be called to show patience even as we act with fierce urgency.

But we should never forget that we are the heirs of those early patriots, ordinary men and women who refused to give up when it all seemed so improbable; who somehow believed that they had the power to make the world anew. That's the spirit that we must reclaim today.

For the American Revolution did not end when British guns fell silent. It was never something to be won only on a battlefield or fulfilled only in our founding documents. It was not simply a struggle to break free from empire and declare independence. The American Revolution was - and remains - an ongoing struggle in the minds and hearts of the people to live up to our founding creed."

So good luck Obama and congratulations. I really hope you make us proud, but even if by some freak accident your presidency turns out to be even worse than the worst presidency we’ve ever had, I am still proud of my country for electing you.

This is a poem by John O’Donohue that Maryland Governor Martin O’Malley recited this weekend at Obama’s Baltimore train stop. Even though politicians and poetry don’t go well together, I actually thought it was fitting.

It’s high over the mountains the eagle spreads it’s wings
May your perspective be larger than the view from the foothills
When the way is flat and dull and times of grey endurance
May your imagination continue to invoke horizons
When thirst burns in times of drought
May you be blessed to find the wells
May you have the wisdom to read time clearly
And know when the seed of change will flourish
In your heart may there be a sanctuary for the stillness where clarity is born
May your work be infused with passion and creativity
And have the wisdom to balance compassion and change
May your soul find the graciousness to rise above the fester of small mediocrities
May your power never become a shell where in your heart would silently atrophy
May you welcome your own vulnerability as the grounds where healing and truth join And integrity of soul be your first ideal
The source that will guide and bless your work


Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere

Letter from Birmingham Jail is one of my favorite works by Martin Luther King Jr. It is far too long to post here, but if you haven’t read it you should do so now. It's ok, I'll wait...

Amazing right? :)
“We know through painful experience that freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed. Frankly, I have yet to engage in a direct-action campaign that was "well timed" in the view of those who have not suffered unduly from the disease of segregation. For years now I have heard the word "Wait!" It rings in the ear of every Negro with piercing familiarity. This "Wait" has almost always meant 'Never." We must come to see, with one of our distinguished jurists, that "justice too long delayed is justice denied."

“Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection.”


Here are some general quotes from MLK that I love:
“A nation that continues year after year to spend more money on military defense than on programs of social uplift is approaching spiritual death.”

“Discrimination is a hellhound that gnaws at Negroes in every waking moment of their lives to remind them that the lie of their inferiority is accepted as truth in the society dominating them.”

“It may be true that the law cannot make a man love me, but it can keep him from lynching me, and I think that's pretty important.”

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. Hate multiplies hate, violence multiplies violence, and toughness multiplies toughness in a descending spiral of destruction....The chain reaction of evil--hate begetting hate, wars producing more wars--must be broken, or we shall be plunged into the dark abyss of annihilation.”

“Man is man because he is free to operate within the framework of his destiny. He is free to deliberate, to make decisions, and to choose between alternatives. He is distinguished from animals by his freedom to do evil or to do good and to walk the high road of beauty or tread the low road of ugly degeneracy.”

“In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”

“When you are right you cannot be too radical; when you are wrong, you cannot be too conservative.”

“Nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.”

“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”


Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Scott rocks my socks off

There are just some days when inspiration is a stingy bitch and the world is too hung over to entertain us. When these boring days quench any spark of genius I might have sparked while banging my head on the keyboard, there is only one thing left to do: steal it from someone else.

There is this guy on myspace who I secretly stalk love. I've wanted to add him to my friends forever, but I feel weird about being friends with people I don’t actually know.

His name is Scott. This is the first blog I ever read of his and it’s awesome. Freggin awesome.
The “hot girl” Lifestyle

Is it really getting you anywhere? Are you having that much fun? oh, I’m sure you're meeting a ton of quality individuals and spending time with people whom you will have lasting, meaningful relationships with... haaa. after working downtown for a few years at the "hottest" clubs, whatever that appears to mean, it pretty much makes me want to puke when I see these poor, trashy souls dumping money into their nasty wardrobes to attract worthless scummy douche bags to give both of their lives some semblance of meaning in this capitalist fuckall. I’m not saying the future holds any promise much more than frustration, disappointment, and death, but there does exist some possibility of a life devoid of the necessity to boost your silly ego with the fleeting grace that blowing a hundred bucks on drinks and making an ass of yourself on the sidewalk of some posh shit hole you paid another thirty or fifty affording you the ability of ascending to the rank of "cool" does.

I think a serious reality check is in order for my pretties. I keep my dealings in the industry fairly low-key. Obviously it's easy money when you deal with a population of a couple thousand that have a combined I.Q. of roughly 34 but I digress. And that is the first time i have ever digressed or what have you. I mean if you're over 21 then you are already far past medium on your way to well-done and sister, let me tell you, no man worth his sauce eats his steak anything other than medium-rare. That why when you order a fifty dollar steak it has no dressing, and when you pick one up at Denny’s, well, here comes the A1. The perfume and slinky, revealing hips and lips and thighs are the A1 of the industry. If you've passed your prime - time to find a new line of work.

"I just go out to have fun with my girls."

Liar. You’re the most desperate because you probably have yourself fooled into believing that your own deteriorating mental state and super-self-assuredness is normal and healthy. It’s not. People who have so-called self-esteem have no need to notice it, defend it, or spend six days a week to prepare for the three hours they get out on the town and get hammered drunk. you see, I factor in all the time you spend at the gym, whitening your teeth, lengthening your hair and nails, priming and primping your disgustingly unnatural orange tan and the shopping for your wretched outfits that look near exact to what every other whore in your party are donning. okay so you may not be there to pick up dick but you're sure as fuck there to have a wallet pick you up because let's face it, that's what our parents teach us. if you have not enough brains to hold down a regular job or, what's more likely, erroneously believe that you're as pretty and deserving as daddy made you feel while he basted you with praise as a tender young tart, then of course you're seeking out that basting rod which only cash satiates - however momentarily.

"I love my husband/boyfriend."

Then why are you out surrounded by sweaty apes? you undoubtedly were married far too young or to the wrong man - like your mother and it's too bad she didn't work on herself more or she might have passed on some useful traits to her egg before it got sour or cracked. Now I’m not actually saying this because I would ever want to help you out. it makes for a good laugh when I know exactly how a woman would be in bed and what she would say day in and out simply by how she is dressed and carries herself on any particular occasion. And yes it is that simple and generic. Are you seriously going to argue with me? Look into yourself more; if you're honest enough with yourself - which you aren't - then you'll know what I mean. I am quite certain that you can even see it in others yet never not in yourself, heavens no. I laugh.

VIP on the left, general admission on the right. Yeah, your name is on this piece of paper just get your fake tits out of my face. Do you feel better about yourself now? Sweet. Pay at the door and have that loser with a bankroll for personality buys you some liquid so you both can forget your pitiful shared existence. Another match made in god's divine realm.


How could you not love a person after that? I will leave you with another one of my favorites. This time he wrote about prop 8 (he lives in San Diego) and it’s brilliant.

I know it’s long, but I love it and it’s my blog so I'll do what I want to. Nah nah nah nah nah. :)
Kids with yes on 8 signs

I do not myself believe that marriage is an inalienable right given unto us by a god for use solely by one party comprised of one man and one woman. I believe marriage is a contract between two morons who have allowed themselves to be duped into believing that marriage is sacred and eternal and other silly things and who trust that it isn’t the ultimate symbol of submission to stupidity. However, I also believe that any two (or maybe three or four or whatever condition satisfies their equation) people should be allowed to embark on this whirlwind tour of retarded exuberance at their own peril without the intervention of another individual or groups creative deity figure. Here is one of a handful of instances that I have been involved with recently in which I have directly engaged with people wishing harm on others. I encourage more people to try different tactics to knock some fucking sense into these cretins.

So I keep seeing these asshole Christians putting their kids on the corner of penasquitos drive and carmel mountain road with 'yes on 8' signs in their hands. Today there were 6 or 7 young teen boys between probably 13 and 16 years old. Okay so let’s forget for the moment that these nimrods are not of voting age and probably shouldn’t be expressing their opinions on how others should vote because in effect they are simply being used as propaganda tools by anti-gay right wing Christians and other dildos. I’m not one to get offended by ignorance; instead I challenge it the best way I know how: cursing and name calling.

So after I had spotted my prey (not in a pedophile way though) I pulled up to the stop light at penasquitos drive near the double tree hotel in rancho penasquitos and rolled down my window. I made eye contact with a young lad who was waving about a sign that stated "prop 8 = religious freedom". Now, some people may believe that the best way to combat such glaring expressions of ignorance is with rational, level headed debate and dialogue. This isn’t how I handle situations such as these. After getting his attention I asked the kid point blank, "do you even know what that sign means that you're holding?"

He mustered all of his early-teen manliness, took a breath, and spoke with as deep sounding a voice as he could and said flatly, "yes, yes I do."

So I replied, "it means you hate gays."

He stammered for a reply as his eyes glossed over and the other high schoolers gathered closer in once they caught wind of what I had said. His reply was a short and defensive, "n n n no I don’t."

"Yes," I said again, "you hate gays."

At this point his buddies started towards my car and held their various 'yes on 8' placards out like crusaders attempting to block the spears of defending Moslems.

To each one I turned and assured them that they indeed, "hate gays."

"You hate gays." I said to one as he instantly grew frustrated at this confounding accusation.

"You hate gays, those signs mean, you hate gays" came my assertion over and over.

"I don’t hate gays!" one insisted.

But he did indeed hate gays and I reminded him of his sign by responding that, "that sign means you hate gays."

At this point I disallowed the young sirs the opportunity to express their innocence by pointedly attacking them continually with the phrase, "you hate gays."

"You hate gays."

"You hate gays."

"You hate gays."

I told this to each kid a few times and pointed directly to their center for added effect. the kids did not have a coordinated defense. Essentially I cut into them with exactly the type of attack that they were not prepared for. I put them on the defense viscerally not with semantics and once pushed back on their heels, they easily toppled to the pressure of whatever faith and servitude initially brought them to that place.

After notifying each of the 6 or 7 kids over and over that they in fact hated gays, I drove off. I watched in my rear view as they huddled to discuss what had happened. They were visibly upset by the simple name calling and negative labeling associated with their impish pleas of innocence and their outlandish expression of hatred. "I don’t hate gays," the first had said out of disgust. But the problem with his banner waving, as innocent and ignorant as it may have been, is the lack of understanding of the full context of the hatred and fear of homosexuals throughout our shared history. When one of these kids blindly obeys his parents (or pastors), as was obviously the case here, he is perpetuating the hatred that has plagued human society since its inception.
Hatred of the other, fear of the non-norm, or persecution of some perversion of perceived civility that infects a human system is most certainly evil. What is laughable, if only in its ironic incongruence with blatant truth, are the claims and views held by the self-proclaimed righteous over those deemed evil. In this case we find religion in its most arcane and simple form: a fear based survival tactic. Survival as it is understood here is a claimed adherence to supposed traditions of social conduct. Social conduct, while masquerading as some commonly held civil procedure, is actually the oppression of an expression of freedom of will by a group of non-adherents to the supposed majority practice. Thus what we find as being offered forth as the 'good' are those practices which are held by one group though not in another. while the second groups' adherents may share some practices with those whom adhere to the first group there does exist a breaking point at which both groups have inherent equal right to claim practices that are 'good' for themselves while negating the ability of the first to make the claim that the second groups good practices are indeed 'evil' or vice versa. Since we know that the second group is not attempting to simultaneously make the claim that the first groups practices are evil we can assert the ruling that the first group is acting alone in its oppressive behavior and must move to censure their efforts forthwith. As such I compel those who have followed the discussion to immediately begin to speak out and express their severe disapproval of the actions of those who follow the oppression of another individual or group as it arises throughout this case.

If you vote yes on prop 8, then you too hate gays, and you are not voting for religious freedom no matter how much you convince yourself that that is the case. And you’re a fucking prick which is why I won’t spend time proving that prop 8 involves absolutely nothing to do with religious freedom. It has solely to do with hatred, fear, oppression, and punishment of people who may not believe, act, or live as you do. prop 8 is a reactionary move intended to strip happiness from a particular group of people.

Whatever gay Jesus, blow me.

On a side note: I watched Obama’s stop in Maryland on his way to Washington yesterday.

I was somehow lucky enough to have turned on CNN about twenty minutes before Obama gave his speech. I also watched a speech given by Congressman Elijah E. Cummings and Governor Martin O'Malley.

I don’t know if the people who type up the speech transcripts are busy nursing a hangover, but I am really irritated that I can’t find the poem that O’Malley recited.

I will look again tomorrow, but if anyone by chance knows what it is let me know.

Thanks :)

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Monotonous Monotony

I am totally peeved right now. As some of you may know, Sundance it going on in Utah right now.

Now generally I could care less. In fact, I have never even been to park city or any of the ski resorts in the two years I’ve lived here. Main reason, I am not into snow sports. There is not anything remotely attractive about the idea of being in freezing weather while hurting myself repeatedly for “sport.” No thanks.

(While there are a few places I want to eat at or watch shows at, my car would die trying to go up that big ass mountain.)


My friend Kramer has tickets to see some sort of Animation Spotlight compilation of films for today in a downtown theater. Unfortunately, it stated at 12:30 so I’m obviously not there.

The reason, my boyfriend “forgot.” Yeah that’s it. He took his brother home this morning (last night was the first time we ever drank with him and it was quite funny) so he and his father could go car shopping. Ryan decided to go with them, and the rest is…well me sitting at home brooding and trying to think of devious ways to get back at him.

I am super pissed. I’m not even a crazy Animation fan; I’m just upset at my boyfriend’s thoughtlessness.


Might as well pick up some books I have on hold. (I know, I just can't stop myself.)

And for need of a good laugh, here's a picture I found on photobucket:


hahahaha...You're welcome.